So About this Vegan Attempt...

I'm doing horrible at it.  I totally convinced myself that before Aruba I would try to get back into a more Vegan lifestyle.  It's healthier and I need to clean up my eating just a tad more in order to feel fabulous in those Victoria Secret bikinis.

I'm doing great, but every once in awhile I get these cravings for everything and anything not on my good for me list.  Isn't that always how it works though?  Every time you cut something off your list (even if you don't eat it often) all of a sudden you start just jonesing for it!

Stupid food.

So, after I wrote the other day on here that I really haven't been cooking lately, I decided that I needed to cook.  I made a fabulous salad that I saw on Apartment 34 (minus all the fanciness) that I just can't stop eating (I know it's got cheese, I know it's not Vegan...).

Unfortunately, three days of eating this fabulous salad (minus the candied walnuts) has equalled my need for another product.

I'm dying over here!  I love my fruits and veggies, but no one lets you know that when you start going all fruit and veggie that it really, well, is just a fabulous mess on your digestion. 

Maybe potato chips would be better?

Then I got this brilliant idea to make some vegetarian chili.

I know, I know, I'm a glutton for punishment.  

Anyone Else Think that the Vegetable Classic Black Bean Flavored with Bacon is Hilarious?

Sometimes, I could just kick myself for the stupid things I do.

So, all day I suffered.  I'm pretty sure my size eights were cutting off my circulation by the end of the night.  I think muffin top would have been the understatement of the year.  

It's almost 2 a.m. and I've resorted to this.

Stupid Vegetarian thing.  I'm over it.  Unless you've all got a better idea!

Back into the Swing of Things

I cannot believe that it's been a month since I've blogged! But my life has definitely been in a whirlwind in the past month; I've been busy, very busy. On September 21, my husband and I got married! Officially. The wedding was perfect. In one word, it was just perfect, there is nothing else to describe the day. I never thought that a day could honestly be as magical as our wedding day was. Not one thing would have been changed- from the flowers, to the dress, to the music, to the candle-lit tables, everything was perfect. Surprisingly, I wasn't crying throughout the entire day- I was composed and giddy. I've never been happier in my life. It was a day to be enjoyed and a day that we'll both never forget. I will also remember, forever, the weight that I was on this day: 143 pounds! I have not thought of being under 150 pounds since I left my teenage years, so this accomplishment was more than I ever expected from myself. Not one time did I think, "do I look fat" or anything like that; not a negative thought was in my head. I've never felt more beautiful in my life. I want to weigh this weight 20 years from now- if we ever have a child, after I have the child, I want to weight 143 pounds. I've never felt better in my life. I wake up feeling sexy. My whole outlook on everything is changing- I feel so proud of myself for reaching my goal of weighing 150 pounds- but I actually beat it. I haven't weighed this little since I was 16- almost 10 years ago. My husband couldn't watch me walk down the aisle because he was getting so emotional; in the receiving line, after the wedding, he asked me to do a little twirl for him so he could see me in my dress... all he keeps talking about is me in "that dress!" what an amazing feeling! I know that on my wedding day I looked amazing and couldn't have felt better. What a feeling! I'll never forget this day.

Now I'm back to reality. After 3 weeks of no workouts, I finally went back to Jen, and oh how I suffered! Her thursday class kicked my butt and friday I was feeling all the aches and pains of her workouts, but I have to admit, it felt so good! I've missed that feeling. Today I had a session with Jen and again she kicked my ass. But I'm not complaining because I see the results and I feel the difference in my workouts- she says I've taken my game to the next level... what a compliment! Now I've got to get my best buddy motivated to lose weight too! She's getting married in July and I'm her matron (so weird to say!) of honor and she needs to get motivated to get into her beautiful wedding dress. So, here I am, a newly converted exercise girl and healthy eater, and now I've got to help my best bud. I know it's not going to be easy, but like me, she's got no choice in the matter but to get her ass in gear. So i'm going to be the angel on her shoulder telling her what to do- hopefully I can help her out. First step, Jen Murphy classes. She's such a motivation, so I'm hoping she'll motivate my friend too.

This weekend was Jen, pilates dvd's, and wii fit... I've just got to keep motivated, just like I have been. My mii on wii fit is now at "normal" weight and is looking skinny and trim. I'm at 22 percent body fat. I was at 28. I couldn't be more proud, but I think I said that already. Good things are always worth repeating. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow to some windsor pilates. As my nutritionist doctor has said, dedicate at least 10 minutes everyday to exercise and you'll never fall back to being overweight. With Jen at least 2 to 3 times a week and my wii fit and windsor pilates dvd's I can't fail. I never want to fall back to being overweight again. My husband can't stop looking at me, Oh what a feeling that I never want to lose! I just keep having faith that this feeling will never end.