I Think I Can, I Think I Can...

Well, 2013 good riddance!

I'm kinda excited that you're almost over. Not gonna lie, you weren't the best year, not the worst either, but definitely not the best. Maybe it's because I'm getting cynical in my old age, but I keep on looking back on my life and thinking about which years were the best. Well, 2013 you were almost the worst. I'd say 2003 beats ya, maybe even 2005, but hell, that was ten years ago, and I was still a kid! So in my adult-ish life, you sucked more than most years.

This has been by far my laziest year on record. I think I hit the gym til about March and then crapped out. I'd pick it up here and there, but mostly I just was a lazy ass and my ass shows it.

I felt very unfulfilled at most things this year. I love the people I work with, but I think I've reached the age to safely say that bar tending is just not the fun that it used to be. It's always been nice to walk away with cash in hand at the end of the night, but I must say that I'd trade it for a normal routine in a heartbeat. I wish I realized that in 2010. Dinner at home, at my unused dining room table would be really kinda awesome. Poor, beautiful, table. At least it's used for collecting mail.

I'd have to say that by far, 2013 was the best year for my music. So, 2013 you do have some redeeming qualities. We got to play at the Bluebird, and we've successfully played a bunch of gigs in our hometown area. Plus our demo is almost done, but i'll push that to 2014 for the true excitement, seeing that I don't have it in my hands yet.

This is my last New Year's Eve working at my bar. It's kinda bittersweet. I've never been a big NYE person, everyone knows that, but there's definitely something about it that feels like a true ending. You can start new at the stroke of midnight. And that's what this year is all about—I've got some big promises to fill this year. I'm not good at keeping promises, so I try not to make them, and I hate when other people do, but I'm going to keep this promise and try like hell to make the most of our music this year. I'm going to work my ass off. And hopefully in doing so, some of my ass comes off in the process! Double score!

So, goodbye 2013.

Hello 2014. Nice to meet you. Please treat me well.

The Bluebird Cafe...

I'm still in shock.

I can't believe that we played at The Bluebird Cafe.

Amy and I made a trip down to Nashville and decided that we would put our names in the hat and try to get in on the lottery for the Monday night open mic night.

We arrived our two hours early. Amy got on line and I parked our little wind up toy rental car.

It was cold. It was wet. It was snowy.

I found us some amazing hot apple cider; It still didn't help against the sting of the cold snow. I really wasn't expecting to feel snow like that down there, but I'm pretty sure it just followed me from New York. We all know how much I just love snow.

Thankfully the snowy night worked in our favor. We were in. We got to play. I was so beyond nervous because this has been a dream of mine for so many years. It didn't exactly go as planned, but let me tell you, I wouldn't change it for the world...

I was so nervous when our number to play started getting close. I was texting my hubby the whole time and he was so excited for me; he knew this was a dream come true. We knew that we'd sing our song "Lost Chances" but for some reason, even though it's our most comfortable song, my nerves just wouldn't' go away. But I keep trying to remind myself that if I'm not nervous i'm not ready…

 To say the least, we have such an awesome story to tell when we make it big! I chatted up the crowd a little while introducing ourselves, but then we started and everything felt so right. Then all of a sudden Amy stopped strumming the chords. I immediately thought that she broke a string and in my head I just laughed, like,  this is what would happen… but it got even better. Amy dropped her pick… no, not on the floor, in her guitar! Thankfully, it was endearing and completely funny! We both handled it so well, just like old hat! Once Amy scanned the room for a new one, we continued on like nothing happened. It feel like our first time at the Bluebird couldn't have gone any better.

You'll have to watch the video to see! And since I can't seem to upload it, you'll have to check out our Facebook page.  Search for "Pearls & Poison."

Then we made a night of it and hit up the Gaylord Opryland, I had to take Amy there- there's nothing like it around Christmas time. We had horrible flights and a moment at the Bluebird that definitely could have gone a little smoother, but in the end, we bonded more and had a little inside look on what our lives will be like when we're there one day! What a perfect getaway!