Last year I wanted to really get my butt in gear with working out, and I did. It feels great.
This year, one of my goals was to start swimming again. I've been missing it. I use to love swimming. Throughout college it was my choice workout. I wanted that again. So, for the past three Saturdays I've been getting up and going swimming.
I was actually nervous about stepping into the pool again. I didn't want to look like a fool, although, to most, I do because of the swim attire...
But I didn't want it to feel awkward. I didn't want to feel like I haven't swam in two years. Two years! I debated on doing it for the entire half hour drive to the pool. I sat in the car trying to convince myself to just go back home. But I got my butt out of the car and into the locker room. I needed to do this. I needed to swim.
The first time felt great. It was amazing to feel my body in sync again. It feels so natural to be in the water. I feel weightless. I feel graceful. I feel as close to perfect as I could possibly ever get.
The first two weeks I didn't do my turns. I was scared I couldn't still do them. It was like the first time I was taught. I've always loved swimming, but I didn't learn how to do all the bells and whistles until I was 21, I still don't know it all. I was scared I was going to hit the wall. I was scared I was going to knock myself out. I was scared of that feeling you get in your head when water gets in your ears.
My third swim this past Saturday I had my earplugs of choice in and got in the pool. I didn't think about it beforehand. I didn't plan on trying my turns. But my first lap down, I decided half way that I was going to try it. Who cares if I looked like a fool! So, I went for it. And it was perfect. It was like I never stopped swimming.
I wanted to cry. It felt amazing. I felt so accomplished. I felt like I could still call myself a swimmer. I felt my body in motion.
I swam for an hour. It felt like ten minutes.
I'm a swimmer.
No, I will never be amazing. I'll never have the perfect stroke. I'll never be the fastest person in the pool or the most graceful. But I always feel like I am.
I like this setting goals for myself thing. I think it could actually work. I think I could learn to love being a person that keeps their word when it comes to settings goals and raising the bar.
Hopefully, I'll tackle more items on my list...